i know

i know that his is not going to be easy... what happened to me though? last week i was so excited! i guess i just didn't expect it to be so hard right off the bat... oh well, it doesn't matter that i'm taking incredible risk to do this thing... i was called... for once God made something perfectly clear, so that's it... i have to do it... i'm going to do it... whether i see a way yet or not.

p.s. lately i've been freaking out just saying the word... 'seminary'... yikes! what's that about?