history, can you not repeat yourself?

i’m here again... in ‘i hate school and would rather dig ditches for a living land’... right now i’m hating on almost everything... i’m hiding from as many people as i can... just because i don’t feel like dealing with them....

random subject change: thanksgiving was cool... we had the usual dry thanksgiving dinner with very little talking that started at 2 30 in the afternoon and was over by 4... then half of us rushed off to our second thanksgiving dinners at friends or other families houses... i went to one of my best friends houses and actually spent most of the evening there with her family and my other best friend... how drastically different our dinners were... there was music playing, talking, mandatory dancing, laughing, happiness... to sum it up: fun...

i also enjoyed talking with her little sister... she’s going through something a lot like i’ve been through... she’s understanding what it’s like for everyone around you to understand your destiny and tell you constantly, but still doubt it in yourself... it’s amazing how something can be so obvious to everyone but ourselves... probably not so much because we don’t see, but because we refuse to see... we’re too scared to see because we don’t want to imagine or have to face the consequences... unfortunately, it usually takes way too long to realize that the consequences of not following our destinies is much worse...

oh well... she’ll figure it out... we all do eventually i guess...

meanwhile, i’ve decided that my destiny for this semester is to provide a situation where God can work a fabulous miracle... more specifically: i don’t study, do my homework and reports, read my assignments, or go to class... but still pass. ‘i’m doing this for Your name’s sake, God!’ but really... please have mercy