hmmmm

the concert was hot... it was lovely... there was power flowing from the beginning... up until..... well... it turned into a concert... then it became less about God and all about tye... that’s what it felt like anyway... oh well...

i don’t know what to think... i felt kind of awkward, like i didn’t belong... i was supposed to be signing for the choir, but when we got in, there was no place for me to stand... i went around asking the leaders and they all basically went, ‘i don’t care... whatever you want...’ but that’s bull... if i decided to stand directly in the middle of the choir... or stand in front of the choir and walk around, weaving in and out of the mics, they’d probably have a problem... oh well... i think they hate me now... but that doesn’t matter.

my exam friday went okay... better than it would have if i hadn’t studied... my teacher was feeling so sorry for me too... he kept coming into the test room going, ‘can i help you with anything? any questions at all? don’t you want to fill in those blank spots on your answer sheet?’ i did... i really did...

oh well... it’s over now... i still have to turn in my lab book that was due friday, and i have an exam to pass today *please God please God please God* and i’m spending my time so effectively by sitting here blogging... talk about things that make you go hmmmmm....

anyways... still debating:
-whether or not to withdraw from my afam class this sememster (i’m two books and two papers behind)
-whether or not to tell my mom about seminary... (she keeps asking about grad school... yikes!)
-whether or not to dance on sunday (i need to study, but this lady keeps begging me... i really don’t have time!)
-whether or not to take out some loans and change my undergrad major to music so i’ll be here another 3 years (about 9 total) and have to put up with an endless load of shame...
-whether or not to write this story about a zebra right now... or later today...