omigosh, i am so in love with this boy... he is just soooooo cute i don’t know what to do... it’s clearly just some weird crush tho, cuz i really haven’t seen him or spoken to him in 5 years *consarnit!*...

but i have his screenname!... but i don’t want to send him a message... but he’s actually on aim and he hasn’t been in like 3 years and neither have i and what are the chances that we’ll ever be on at the same time again?... but he prolly doesn’t remember me... but he’s so talented to... but what would i say?... and he left his homepage address on his away message and i looked at it and there were pictures of him and his paintings *which are amazing!* and omigosh, i used to say that the only thing that this brother would need to make me get all happy like a schoolgirl when i saw him was some facial hair on his beautiful yellow face and of course! he has a lovely scruffy little beard thing happenin’ and i think i want to cry... but oh well... i need to study...

he’s prolly a jerk anyway...