ahhh... sobriety

i’m definitely sober now... i’m chillin... mic said to me last night, ‘don’t go crazy, cuz you deserve nothing less than the best and you can’t compromise for anything...’

don’t worry, girl... i won’t... believe me... for me, once i see something in character or behavior that would cause me to need to compromise, that’s as good as God writing on stone tablets, ‘this is not for you’... and i’m done...

ash-t asked me if i liked him...
‘do you like him?’ she asked

‘yes’ i replied

‘you like him like him?’

‘yes’ i replied

‘you LIKE him like him?’

‘yes’ i replied

‘i can tell’

i’m sort of embarrassed... cuz usually when i like somebody... knowing that it’s probably an ephemeral crush... i manage to hide it really really well...

but i also know this about myself... i get kinda giddy around musicians... not about the musicians necessarily, but the music...

and i know i have a tendency to act kind of flirty sometimes... NOT AT ALL INTENTIONAL... but it would be easy to take my behavior the wrong way... i touch people a lot when i’m talking to them... like if you’re next to me, i’m probably gonna be all up in your personal bubble...

and i smile constantly anyway and laugh at everything... so she might have just been seeing that... no matter anyway... he doesn’t know how i usually act around folks, so i’m straight...

still wondering:
WHAT IS UP with rb’s behavior? does he *gulp* like me... or what? what’s goin on? usually asian dudes don’t like Black girls...(sorry chi... lol)