is it supposed to twitch like that?

i hate labs... i really hate dissections... we removed a sciatic nerve from a frog today... the thing is... the frog was alive (it had to be in order for the experiment to work) but of course it was in comatose... or so they claimed...

i say this because the frog definitely woke up after we (and by 'we' i mean the other two dudes in the group) removed the skin from it's legs and had pinned it's muscles open...

suddenly, it began to twitch like crazy (it's supposed to twitch some, but not like this)... so we were instructed to tap the frog's eye to see if it would blink... and it did... and then it opened it's mouth as if to cry, 'eloi eloi sabachtani!' ...

the teacher then rushed over to save the frog from it's misery (because all this followed a speech about how this was a humane procedure since the frog would feel nothing)... and she stuck some big metal spike down the frog's back and put it out... it was still alive though, and therefore bleeding... i really wanted to cry...

it's over now though... and i made it through... only because i finally remembered that i wouldn't get so dizzy if i remembered to breathe...

i'm really screwing up... it's only like a month into the semester and i'm already on the brink of failing my classes... how did i get so behind? God help me...

and i still have so much to do... but i'm so upset about class and choir3 and bills and friends and everything that i think i'm going to go home and go to sleep, even though i've so much more work left... so so tired.....

on a good note, the mouse is gone... i mean... it was only last night that i gained the courage to sleep with the lights off, but i still left my tv on the whole night... maybe i'll muster up enough courage to turn it off tonight...