it all started with the convo... see, i’m not a phone person, so i rarely talk on the phone and if i do, it’s usually for a very short period of time... i can think of one friend that i might actually have a conversation with for that long (chi)... but i’d never spoken on the phone with him before, and i hadn’t seen him in years... and even then we never really spoke... and half the convo was about God... that’s what really did it...

so i spent a couple of hours with mil last evening... i think i smiled for a straight hour after i left him... he’s really really nice... i love to be in his presence... and he’s genuinely funny... like, he prompts true laughter from me, not the polite laughter that i offer so many of my other acquaintances... and i love that his sense of humor is g-rated... and never mean-spirited... one thing i really don’t like is when people’s jokes center solely on making fun of other folks... like jay...

but yesterday was cool... i spent the majority of the time smiling at him while i watched him play the piano... smiling, not cuz i love him, but because he’s hilarious to watch... the faces- oh the faces!

he’s so insanely talented too - it’s amazing... but he’s also ridiculously humble... i know beasts who know they’re beasts and therefore their gift is spent wherever they can get the most money... like jay... but he’s taking time out of his VERY busy schedule to help me... i’m so honored...

see - humility is a characteristic that i absolutely adore... in fact... give me a funny, humble man who loves God and i’ll show you my man... oh... wait a minute... *giggle*

sike naw... though i spent the whole of last night and this morning claiming my husband, and begging God to give me a reason not to like him/ asking God if i can have him (cuz after i ask this question, God is usually quick to give me reason)... God has finally granted me sobriety...

before i get all crazy and obsessed for real... i can at least wait to find out if he likes me first... (though if i put aside my penchant for not assuming anything and assume LIKE CRAZY, i could say that he stayed a lot longer than he had to... and he hugged me more than he had to... and he tried to find out if i had a boyfriend by slipping in the random comment about the boyfriend, i.e. ‘why do you keep looking at your phone? you waiting for a call from your boyfriend?’...he also kinda hinted that i should call him this week)... but anyway... i’m not going to assume, cuz maybe he hugs everybody alot...(or MAYBE he was trying to hide his want to hug me by hugging everyone else) – NOPE! i’m being sober... but mark my words... if in our next two encounters, God doesn’t show me why i can’t have him, i’m claiming him officially as my future husband...

speaking of... after i’d arrived home, my roommate, ash-t, calls me into her room and goes, ‘your future husband is on the phone...’
of course i immediately thought of mil... but then i remembered that she doesn’t know about that yet.... so i asked, ‘who?’
of course it’s jay... then he proposed to me again, via ash-t... but i said no... anyways... i’ll see him today in about an hour... this should be interesting....