how do you not worry?

so after all this, i'm finally doing well in school... but i might have to drop out...

i can't pay for it... and financial aid is really not trying to give me any money...

i have 75 cents... i have 1 cup of noodles and a can of soup... and the end slices to a loaf of bread... i also have a can of tuna fish, some peanut butter and a little jelly left... if i only eat 1 meal twice a day, then that can last me 3 days... and you can live 3 days without eating at all so at least i'll see another week...

maybe if anybody actually remembered my birthday (you excluded, chi- thanx for the very early b-day song)... and if anyone had time to celebrate it, i would have some leftover party food to last some time...

i however, am working til the wee hourse of the night so i prolly won't even remember it myself...

oh well... if i starve to death by next week, i won't have to worry about tuition...

i have so much work to do... i require books for this work... but i don't have money to buy those books... how's that one gonna work out?

and why did the cable guy try to chat me up the other day... i mean... he was NOT TRYIN' TO LEAVE!!! i'm afraid he might start stalkin me... and i'm sure he's like 35... geesh!

i try to stay encouraged but it's not easy... i try to not worry, but that's getting harder and harder to do without becoming complacent...

well... life could be harder... *God, please don't make it harder*