maybe He speaks through...

i was about to withdraw from school today... i think... but then as i was on my way, one of my teachers called me... she had arranged for a group of us to sing at a nearby church on sunday and was calling to confirm how many of us there were and a few other things...

then she goes, ‘how’s the financial thing?’

i say, ‘it’s the same... i still don’t have any money.......’ i couldn’t think of what else to say...

she goes, ‘whatever it seems like, your tuition will be paid, just have faith... it might not be until the end of the semester, just keep trusting.’ she said, ‘keep going with school as if there’s not a problem... everything will work out fine.’

i’m inclined to listen to her considering i hadn’t told her what i was planning to do and i hadn’t spoken to her about my finances for a while... and she just happened to call on the day... well... we’ll see...

and i dont know what it is... but for the third time today this is happening to me... this thing where my heart starts beating all hard and fast so that i can hear it in my ears... and my chest starts to hurt and get tight and i start struggling to breathe... and i get kinda dizzy... i’m hoping that it’s nothing and that it’ll just stop happening... mainly cuz i hate doctors... but i’m not trying to pass out today either....