who will go?

so i've started studying again... i was afraid that i'd forgotten everything, but i'm surprised by how much i remember... anyways, i plan to get some commentaries and other Bible suplements from different sources so that i can get a full historican and contextual view of what i'm reading...

i have so much going on... i should be able to graduate (walk) in the summer time... and then i'll have my diploma and i'll be off to the real world... i've been looking into some jobs and my mom just told me about an internship program... interfaith? something or other...

i've also got to figure out what i'm goin to do about my group... it seems we've been in high demand since the very beginning... we've sung so many places so many times and now we're actually in a studio and about to do a concert... i'll have to give details later... i just worry about losing focus... i want the main goal to always stay in the front... that we're together to minister... to grow close to God and eachother and to manifest the products of our growth through song... we're 'bout to go on a serious fast y'all...

but back to academics... it seems like i'm looking to do everything but apply to school... why? why come so far and just stop trying? i think i'm scared... i KNOW i'm scared... to move away from everyone and everything... i've never been super independant, so to just pick up and go is hard for me to fathom...

prayerfully... hopefully... everything will be okay...