sick

i’m so tired today, i don’t know what’s going on with me. people keep telling me i’m warm when they touch me... but i’m freeeezing. i don’t know... i don’t feel sick... just tired... what i do find amazing though, is how much my countenance affects others... they keep saying, ‘awwww! i’m not used to seeing you like this!’ because usually i’m all smiles –
them: hey girl, you must be happy today!
me: no, i’m really mad.
them: but you’re smiling.
me: 'cause i always smile... this is my angry smile.
or i'm bouncing off the walls and encouraging others to do the same.

however today, i don’t know... i’m probably just a little stressed... i have SOOO much to do... and so many people depending on me right now... between work, church, outside ministries, bible studies, extra rehearsals for three different choirs, and performances for them, i don’t know exactly how to handle them all... but i would gladly exhaust myself with all these things, however, i seem to keep forgetting one very important thing... i’m still in school! i still have classes and homework and lab and exams (one tomorrow in fact), and i’m so behind on all of it. how do i catch up? can i catch up? i can’t afford to fail another class... it’s shameful how i can be so excellent in so many things (not my words) and just be horrible in school... (i have theories about that one that i’ll explain later though)

oh well... i just have to really buckle down and pray that God will help me get through it all... and i mean ALL of it... and it’s a lot too...

oh well, back to seminary research... and then twenty other things...